Change.

So I'm apologizing in advance for how random this blog may be. I'm not quite sure what may end up in here, so bear with me.

A lot has been on my mind lately mostly my spiritual life... well the lack there of. Confession time.

Church.

For me lately, I've been going because other people expect me to be there, not because I want to go. I've been going to make people happy. So I took a job specifically on Sunday mornings during church because I didn't have a church that I liked going to. Since I moved here, I haven't found a church that I've enjoyed going to. I tolerated my old one because my parents liked it, and it wasn't big. And I've tried others, but I never really gave them a chance because I didn't want to go. And to be honest, I can't tell you the last time that I went to church on a Wednesday night, until tonight.

God's been working in my life a lot lately. He took friends out of my life that were pulling me away from him, and he put new ones in that are pulling me back to him. Now, I just have to let myself be pulled back to him. I miss what it felt like after I first became a Christian. I wish I could feel like that all the time. I hate that I'm not completely on fire for God anymore. It's not that I'm a completely different person. I still do things that you would expect Christians to do, but I don't do them because I'm a Christian, I do them because I enjoy the satisfaction of knowing that I did something nice for someone else.

The last few days have really opened my eyes again. I've been hanging out with people that are Christians and go to church on a regular basis. And though they may not know it, they really are making a difference in my spiritual life. I've finally come to the realization that I need to make some changes. These changes will be made at my own pace, and when I decide for them to happen, but things are going to be different.

Another thing I realized is why God didn't let my summer plans work out. I wasn't ready to do what I thought I was ready to do. I thought I was ready to do this specific job, but God knew I wasn't. He knew that I had some issues to work out before I started dealing with other people's. I realize that now. And honestly, I'm glad it happened. I'm glad that he didn't let things follow my plan, because who knows where I would end up.

Needless to say, I'm going to need prayers. I can't do this on my own. But I know that this will be for the better. It's time to be the person I'm meant to be and to stop being a pew warmer. Or not even going at all. Now is when things are going to be different. Let's see how this works out.

I feel as if there are a few songs that are perfect for this blog. So here we go.
The Motions - Matthew West
I'm Letting Go - Francesca Battistelli
Give me your eyes - Brandon Heath

Acts of Kindness.

It's official. I passed all my classes with a 3.6 yet again. :) I love the relief I felt when I finally saw my grades. It's amazing how something can affect your life so dramatically.

So this summer is going alright so far. I caught myself asking a friend the other day when she was going to come visit. Then she brought reality back into my life and told me that we've only been moved out of the dorms for a week, so she wouldn't be back for a while. You mean it has only been a week since I moved out?! I feel like it's been so much longer than that. It seems like it should be half way through my summer already, but it's not. It's only the second week.

Work is going well. Being here 8-5 isn't quite as bad as I thought it was going to be. I really enjoy spending time with my co-workers (Good thing I don't hate them right?). We make things fun ;) Last Friday we had Take Flight for our first group of incoming freshmen. My job was to take all their ID pictures, so I got to see every single one of them, and they're looking like a pretty good group of kids.

For us, the day was so stressful. We had to take each ID picture, have each of them sign two forms, give them a case for their laptop, give them their laptop, give them an adapter, then make sure they could sign in to everything on their laptop. Needless to say that was crazy. But the best part of the day was seeing the excitement on all of their faces when they finally got that laptop. But then there were a few that didn't select their laptop early so they didn't get their laptop that day, and it was kinda sad to see the look on their faces.

The point is, it doesn't take much to make someone's day. For them, it was giving them a laptop. For me, it was seeing their faces when they got the laptop. Giving laptops away seems kinda pricy to make someone happy right? Well for OC it's normal.

So challenge of the day. Go make someone's day by smiling at a stranger, or giving someone a hug, or saying something nice to someone. I promise it doesn't take much.

The generous person will be prosperous, and he who waters will himself be watered. - Proverbs 11:25

Song of the Day: Unwritten - Natasha Bedingfield